For Bitter, For Worse
I had a dream but it died today
It was all I wanted and you took it away
Ignoring my obvious indications
You forced me into resignation
Wanting it so much it consumed my soul
Thinking that somehow I could reach this goal
Willing and able but unsure and afraid
Nothing in the world I wouldn't trade
Trying so hard to make a good impression
Always searching for just the right expression
Ignoring the dangers and dismissing the risks
Focused intently on my ultimate fix
I sacrificed everything to get the chance
All other joys I considered ersatz
Priorities were shuffled in anticipation
Yet unable to shake the spectre of frustration
Day and night I hoped and prayed
Tormenting me while you stalled and delayed
You humored my requests and I dared to believe
Thought it meant something with your approval achieved
With every step closer my expectations grew
But all of my efforts were no match for you
You made me pay dearly for being so naive
From this empty feeling there can be no reprieve
You undid in a moment what took years of preperation
Tou tore apart my feelings with your inconsideration
You strung me along and then you cut the line
Thought you could dismiss me and I really wouldn't mind
Was it purely business when you stole my only pleasure?
Is it any consequence my hurt you cannot measure?
You took a dream within my grasp and made it a nightmare
The pain of just what might have been I'll always have to bear
You turned infinite potential into endless lamentation
Never to recover from your careless deprivation
I smiled through the struggles and dealt with all the shit
Had every piece of the puzzle, but yours refused to fit
You'll never know of all the disappointment you have wrought
Knowing I'll never have what I have so long sought
Maybe one day you'll understand the hell you put me through
When someone robs you of something that meant as much to you
--T. DeMatio (1994)